I am Changing

We have an additional English teacher, Yssa, also a litt major. Collie and I were ahead of her by a year. We’re not close, and admittedly I never talked to her during the duration of my stay in the department much more the majorship’s club, Circulus Literati. But I already have seen her with her classmates, and for once, I know that she had seen me too and I know that she knew that I belong to the batch ahead of them.

I was quiet then, unliberated, repressed, and suppressed. I think up until now, most of my professors see me as this “lady” never that woman of the world they envision their students to be.

Yssa said, upon seeing me inside the faculty room, that she was shocked by my transformation, though I never changed physically in a drastic manner, for I never would have wanted it anyway; but I sensed from her that for her I have changed dramatically, socially speaking. For her, I became courageous in airing my perspectives, loud, wild, and fun, which most of the people then have not seen in me because I failed to show that side of me to them or should I say, I was then afraid to be real, to be me. Why? I don't know why?

Now, my co-teachers see the “changed me”. I guess, yes! I did change, which for the most part I like. I have changed. Biologically speaking, I am still considered as an animal, the highest form, which because I live in an environment must adapt to it. How can an animal adapt to its surroundings without change?

Since, buhay naman akong tao, I adapt to my surroundings. It’s inevitable. So, yes, I did change. But one thing’s for sure that I changed for the better. I am a better person now because God has led me to the perfect place where I can make myself better. God has deliberately enveloped me with people who will help me in my continuing quest for a better me.
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